"My heart is beating like it’s lonely, like there’s nothing else inside of me."
This Is How You Lose Her, Junot Díaz (via estrangera)
"I can see myself watching him shave every morning. And at other times I see us in that house and see how one bright day (or a day like this, so cold your mind shifts every time the wind does) he will wake up and decide it’s all wrong. I’m sorry, he’ll say. I have to leave now."
-Junot Diaz, This is How You Lose Her
le sigh | understood
This is how you lose her.
You lose her when you forget to remember the little things that mean the world to her: the sincerity in a stranger’s voice during a trip to the grocery store, the delight of finding something lost or forgotten like a sticker from when she was five, the selflessness of a child giving a part of his meal to another, the scent of new books in the store, the surprise short but honest notes she tucks in her journal and others you could only see if you look closely.
You must remember when she forgets.
You lose her when you don’t notice that she notices everything about you: your use of the proper punctuation that tells her continuation rather than finality, your silence when you’re about to ask a question but you think anything you’re about to say to her would be silly, your mindless humming when it is too quiet, your handwriting when you sign your name in blank sheets of paper, your muted laughter when you are trying to be polite, and more and more of what you are, which you don’t even know about yourself, because she pays attention.
She remembers when you forget.
You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate. She wants to know that she is enough and she does not need to change for you, nor for anyone else because she is she and she is beautiful, kind and good.
You must learn her.
You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.
You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.
And, this is how you keep her."
This Is How You Lose Her - Junot Diaz (via frommyheart2yours)
I just decided that when they’re old enough, I’m starting my boys on Episode IV and not even telling them about 1-3. I’ve even got an old VHS copy, so they’ll see Han shoot first and Vader will silently make the ultimate sacrifice.
BEST THING EVER! If i ever have kids, I have also made the decision to do this.
Ohhh live hockey, I missed you!
@deekaylove is engaged!!!!
90’s party for Syd’s bday @deekaylove @marynoel214 @captn_kook
You guys, it’s his first goal since I declared him my new boo!